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just want to talk something about what happened to me, because i can't find a way to express my feeling.i felt so bad in such a envirment, i can't talk my problem to my friends, i decide to write it here. this is a ture story and hopes it would not bother anybody.
　　
　　i am a girl of 23 ys old, in a family of four people.
　　i had a older brother who is a depressive patient.
　　my brother, Chend, he used to be tall, handsome, shy, everybody said he is a good boy.since six years ago, he failed in the examination of enterance to university, and he
　　 did't do well in his work, my dad gave much pressure on him.then he became more and more depressive.one day, Chend did not talk to anybody,and start to burn books and clothes. my parents can't accept the fact that their son suffered from such sickness everyday,they got emotional altered easily and aged a lot.
　　
　　i know that they both love my brother very much.my mother took good care of Chender by following the way which was told by the doctor. however, my dad is a very traditional father, serious, strict,diligent. he thought that Chend was not sick, just can't adapt to the society,he asked Chend to work in a srtrict way, even used pressure and force, he said that only working can save a failer. my poor brother was force to work while he was taking medicine. without a good rest, sometimes my father stopped Chend taking the medicine, everytime my brother did a wrong thing or said a word which was not logical,my father just scolded him, yelled at him, even beated him, everytime after that Chend got sick more serious.
　　
　　nobody can't persuade my father, because he is the most powerful person in the family.the doctors and relatives talked to him, told him that he should not treat a pacient in such a way of violence especially to a deprssive patient. but it didn't work. what's worse, my dad regarded us all as enemies for we were not at the side with him. nobody can help us. year by year, Chend is becoming worse and worse, medicine seems do not avail him anymore. and the family has already broken.
　　
　　now, i just gruadated, not easily to found a job and lose it, still can't find a steady place.to myself, i feel so frustrated with tough luck. everytime i come back home, i saw my dad who is always angry with me and loves to make quarrel and use volience, i saw my brother who can't talk to you normally and behave so strange, i felt sadder, i can't count how many times i cried for it. i really want to leave my family, i don't know where i should go and should i go, i only know that i had enough, i can't take it anymore. i am also worried about that is there any possibility i may like my brother....
　　
　　i know, i can't leave my mother alone....
　　
　　
　　
   
   
   
   
   
   
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